How often we are left alone with him? When was the last time we were really alone, how long did not say a single word? No, we go alone, not when watching TV at home, where we can dial a phone number and hear a familiar voice, if desired. And even when we feel in the midst of a vast city in the desert. We go for real ones, when they themselves are looking for solitude, his wish.
Our commitment to privacy may protest or resentment, and may be a manifestation of secret desires or expectations, facing the others.
HAPPENS, WE ARE LOOKING FOR SOLITUDE, wanting to encounter yourself. WE ARE LOOKING FOR YOURSELF unknown, "the other" for themselves.
But there is also a search for loneliness when a person seeking a meeting with yourself. Not the "a", who we know very well who are looking for and are outstanding to us estimates and judgments of others. No, we are looking for themselves the unknown, "the other" for themselves. I remember the sense of confusion and anxiety that is felt when a young man first went to the mountain alone. If I wanted to make sure that I can be alone with yourself, without seeking his reflection in the eyes of others, without their support? Or I wanted to know if I can make myself and discover in themselves something new? I remember very well that to the delight of the domestic discoveries that occurred in the first days of travel, mingled with gradually increasing anxiety. By the seventh day she was clearly felt as a physical force pushing me to the people. It was in Svaneti. Going to a compromise with myself, I moved lower, on the shore of a small mountain stream, two kilometers from the dirt road that passes. Every day, I climbed on a rock overhanging the road, and held in the shelter for several hours with a single purpose - to hear the distant noise of the truck, to anticipate its approach, with a beating heart to meet him and carry out his eyes. Then I was sure that anxiety makes me wait for hours rare car has been associated with something unknown and terrifying inside me. Maybe left alone with nature, I was afraid to dissolve in it and lose yourself? If so, then a truck, I instinctively touched the world of men, to give symbolic support from the father to his unconscious while very conflicting relationship with Mother Nature. The experience in Svaneti was the first step to understanding what the meaning is not to "win" nature, to prove to her the right to independent existence, the right to life in solitude - "without mother", and not to merge it into a coherent whole, to become part of it. The idea is to draw on the power of his father, to gain the ability to live, taking his inner nature and developing their "I". Not necessarily to go to the mountains to meet with him. Each of us need in these meetings. Not in order to purify the mind from thoughts and feelings as in Buddhist meditation. Rather, in order to enrich their lives with new meanings. Meaning, which can only be found within ourselves.